Most Memorable Gift
LS202209-01Gift of a Second Chance in Life
Genuine Gratitude towards living a meaningful life
It happened years ago when my hubby passed away and I was alone with three teenage kids.
As I could not accept the loss, I began to be weakened spirtually and physically. This happened together when my kids also started to become irresponsible with their studies and wasting their lives away with games and videos. It seemed that we were all giving up on life and see life as so impermanent that it no longer make a difference if we did or did not fulfil life with our best effort.
Basically, the loss caused us to head in the wrong direction of being disinterested or lack of motivation or responsibility. That went on in slience and slowly corroding our mind and body without our knowing. One day, I had a little heart discomfort and headache and went for an afternoon nap. I dreamt a long long dream and it seemed to be the past memories of couples in different time and place. It was like watching a movie of my past as I could actually feel the happiness and sadness in each scene until I was confused and tired of the repeated cycles of emotions. Suddenly I asked myself if I was dreaming and tried hard to gather my energy to focus again instead of chasing those scenes. Then a voice spoke, “How are you?”
I replied, “What is this place...what am i doing?”
“You are experiencing and living in your past emotions and that’s what you want, isn’t it?”
“It is so tiring, confusing and ....i need to get out. Yes, I have to look after my kids”
“Are you sure you are really ready to look after them?”
“What do you mean?”
“If you are so confused and tired, how will they become? Much more confused and tired with life in future?”
I was shocked at the words that my heart glow in brightness and then suddenly dark again.
“No, I will make sure I will not be confused ....give me a second chance”
“You have always wanted to be right in everything you do so make this genuinely right this time.”
The voice was so clear even as I woke up to realise I was in a hospital bed. I had a stroke and in coma for two weeks and the doctor said I could have been gone for good if I did not wake up.
I struggled to recover for the next 12 months and that conversation with a voice gave me strength to live life afresh. My kids said that they were all extremely sad and worried when they realised that mom was going away too. I shared with them my long dreams and the conversation that brought me back to life. We loved to live in past happy memories and forget the greater purpose of life. We have to be responsible to our immediate family and fulfil our duties as a human. We will have future family members to join us as children, grandchildren, etc. And we must have the matured mind and spirit to bring them well into good, wise human so that this world can be brighter. The brightness of this world depends on the brightness of our hearts.
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